Secret #4

The months leading up to our wedding were filled with stress and unhappy family members. No one was happy with anything and we even had friends upset with us at certain points. It is very difficult to look back on that time and not have happy memories of our wedding planning. I remember that Scott and I even talked on a few occasions about calling the whole thing off and just going off somewhere and doing it ourselves, but we knew that our families would have been even more unhappy with that.

The wedding day itself was a lot of fun and it was great to have so many of our family and friends with us as we said our vows and celebrated our marriage, but it really ended up not being about us. It was about everyone else and I feel like much of the specialness of the day got lost because of all of the negativity that we had to deal with.

It is partly because of this that Scott and I are planning to renew our vows next year. I want to be able to relive that day and do things our way this time. I want to have the outdoor ceremony that I dreamed of when we first got engaged and I want to be able to wear something much more subtle than the huge wedding gown that I ended up wearing on our wedding day, a gown that was totally not me. (The gown was purchased three weeks prior to the wedding after we realized that I had gained too much weight to fit into my dream gown, which was a beautiful and classy ivory dress decorated with colorful flower embroidery. Basically I ended up buying the only dress in the bridal store that fit me and that didn't cost a fortune, since there wasn't time to order something that fit my personality better.)